Aku rasa gundah. Rasa takut. Rasa sedih. Baru 4 bulan lebih aku menikmatinya. I enjoyed it since day one. I have put my full passion on it since the day I figured out I was pregnant back in February last. I was so determine and bersemangat for it.
Tapi bila dah berkurangan for this past 2 days, aku rasa sangat takut. From 15 yesterday, it dropped drastically today. Only 8 after 3 session. Waaaa sedihnya.
Apetah lagi bila dengar cerita pasal anak dah tak nak menyusu direct. Takut. Sedih. Sooner or later, Iman will do the same thing. Dan itu lah yang paling aku takut dan sedih.
I know I shouldn't give up. There are many solutions and tips to increase it. I have to try those tips. I have to do that for Iman. I've been his milk supply for almost 5 months. OMG. 5 months???? Biar betik. One more month to go for solid food? Then feeding set hunting begins! And, another 6 months for him to be 1-year-old??? Then to think how to celebrate it. Uwaaaaaaaa... my baby sayang dah besar. Rasa macam baru je semalam Iman selalu keluar tengok dunia yang indah ni. Then now I know how Kimora Lee Simmons felt when her daughter Ming straightened her very beautiful curly hair. KLS nangis, dan kata "10 years from now she'll be 18-years-old. And then getting married". Ahaks.. lawak pon ada. Tapi betul. I felt the same thing.